Hello everyone. I just want to start off with a quick rant. Please scroll down further to the actual note.
*FUCK YOU to everyone who said they were so happy about my apparent pregnancy this week (there were three!) and asked me how far along I was. I AM JUST FAT OK?!?! General manners state that if you don't know someone, never, ever, EVER, FUCKING EVER, assume they are pregnant and say it to their face! WTF & WTH is wrong with you?!?!*
Sorry. Most of you know I'm not a yeller or a complainer. I can understand that that was a little harsh, but I mean... come on. Who wouldn't get upset about that?
So obviously this note didn't start off on a good foot. Well, that's ok since that's sort of the tone it will have anyways. Might as well get used to it at the beginning. Haha, wow I am not in a good mood tonight. Possibly not the best time to be writing an update on my health progress... oh well though.
So I left you all off in March where I was 211lbs. I had 8 weeks of school left, which if I had taken the road of last summer, meant I could have shed around 16lbs easily. However, it didn't and the stress of my final term of university ever overtook me and I kind of gave up with the food and exercise plans. I kept going to my trainer, and kept trying to eat right, but living at school almost 24/7 didn't really help me all that much, that's for sure. So I think I left school being around 209lbs.
Good news alert: I GRADUATED WITH DISTINCTION FROM UW AS A CIVIL ENGINEER!!! WHOOOOOO!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
I'm pretty excited and proud about that. I drove back to YK, detouring through Drummondville, QC, to see my favourite french couple and their babies on their new farm. Went through edmonton and spent it with my best friends Shayla, Chelsea and Norah :) and then made it back home!
So now I'm home and I'm looking for my own place. I'm living with my parents though, and you all saw how that affected me over the fall months. I just couldn't stop eating... which isn't their fault... but in any case, I am now up to 216 and waffling 2-3lbs around that number in any given week. It's frustrating and slightly gross to me now.
Well, I did find my own place, and I will be moving in on the 22nd or 23rd of july! It's going to be one huge thing "right" in my life, I think. I also think I'm not in the best place emotionally and that is leading to my eating. I need to really figure this out before I gain any more weight since it is not helping me in any way, shape, or form. I KNOW how to eat right. I have an entire binder full of recipes that helped me lose weight and precious inches last summer! I have routines from my personal trainer and a whole bunch of space in which to do it! Although I will admit that we don't have a very good gym here. It is one of three and always packed, and only open from 6am-10pm... :S not too convenient and everyone goes at the same time. Anyways, I have all the tools, I'm just not employing them for whatever reason.
So there's a boot camp that starts up next week that I will be calling to join tomorrow. It goes from July 5 - aug 25 i think.. I think it'll be a great way to start up again. Hopefully this will push me to kick start everything again. I need to have that "click" again. That pure and simple realization that I need to do this over anything else. It's just hard I guess when your full time job is actually real and you can't skip class just to go to your gym appointment on a given day... I've also registered for another half marathon with my best friends chelsea & norah and their mom. It's happening in victoria in October. :) So that gives me a goal to work for! I want to beat my time from February (2hrs57min) :)
A really close friend and huge support for me helped me come to the conclusion that I can't just start everything all at once all over again. Yes, I've done it before, but jumping into the deep end will eventually find me drowning. I should start wading into the health regimen again slowly, making sure I develop routines that become second nature in slow chunks so as to not overwhelm myself. This is good advice.
Another piece of advice that she and I talked about, is about talking to a professional about my relationship with food and how that affects what I'm trying to do with my health goals. It might be worth a shot at some point I guess, but I'm not entirely convinced I would be ready for something like that right now. Plus it would take more time... and more money haha. Neither of which I have at the moment. *sigh*
I'm going to end this on a positive note. This morning when I woke up, I was at my lightest in two weeks: 214lbs. Yay! My next goal is to get under 210lbs (in a HEALTHY way). Once I reach that I will make another mini goal and I will stick to these mini goals :)
Thanks for reading everyone!
Leslie
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Long overdue update #2
Hey again everyone,
So now we enter into part two of the update!! Fair warning, this one is full of some roller coasters and emotions.
Ok... so it's the beginning of January and I'm back in Waterloo. I've called my nutritionists at UWeightLoss and my personal trainer at Goodlife Fitness and have already set up dates and times to go see them! Well, I get to the nutritionists first and weigh in... which is where I find out that I'm 219lbs... It's pretty bad, since I hadn't weighed myself since mid december, and I wasn't expecting that kind of a jump, even though I knew I was very off track. Tears and feelings of guilt and anger at myself ensue and it's not much of a pretty picture haha... (don't say I didn't warn you this post was full of emotions :P)
Anyways, the gals at UWL are amazing. They really really are. They just sat me down and were like this: "look... what happened, happened. Let's start with this and what we have and see where we can go from here. We know you can do this since you lost 40lbs this summer... this is something you've already accomplished. Just set your mind like you did this summer, and you can do it!!" :) All with encouraging smiles on their faces haha. They have been a great support, that's for sure!
So January was a great month! By the end of it, between my meals plans with UWL and Kim, my awesome personal trainer, I was down all the way back down to 208!! That's 11lbs in a month! Whoohoo! I was feeling good again, the 200 mark was in my sights again and things were looking up!!
Then I went to Edmonton for the concrete toboggan competition that I'd been working towards for the last 2 years. It was fun, but there was a lot of drinking and eating going on. I tried to choose better food and I didn't drink all that much, but I also wasn't really following my program at all. To be honest with you all, I don't think that weekend really would have done much to me if I had come back on a plane with the rest of the team at the end of the weekend.
Unfortunately, I decided to drive my car from Edmonton where it was to Waterloo. And I had a deadline: IRC/IRS weekend was in 4 days. Ring fitting was in 2 days and that was my goal... Well let's just say that there's a post on here already about the Big Bad Chicago Storm that threw a major kink into my plans and almost made me miss getting ringed! yikes!! More about that in the other post if you are interested....
Anyways, I got back late, missed all the classes that week and a few due dates to boot... and then it was IRC/IRS weekend!!! This included a breakfast kegger and drinking all day on Friday until early Saturday morning, ceremony at 10am on Saturday, then a big lunch at red lobster with close friends, and IRS that night which was a whole bunch of drinking there too... so I pretty much bungled all of my progress just from the drive and the IRC/IRS weekend I think...
Went to school on the Monday not feeling too hot (I wonder why... haha), but also stressed out of my mind about all of the class and submissions i had missed, plus worrying about the 4 assignments that were due that week alone that I hadn't finished or even started. Well, lets just say that I lived on campus and got everything done before their due dates (although I did get extensions for some)... however I again didn't work out and ate like crap. Apparently I'm a stress eater... go figure lol.
Finally made it into UWL on Friday and found out that I had yo-yo'd back up to 214... *sigh* there goes all my progress... I work really hard over the next two weeks and get back down to 208 before I leave for Florida and my half marathon for reading week. Yay! or is it?
I kinda cheated... I didn't really eat very much and totally neglected any water. All that weight was pretty much water weight that I lost and being dumb by not eating just to see a number go down... stupid thing to do hey? Is a number really worth me being dumb like that? No, I don't think so... but it's hard to explain that to a self-conscious young adult sometimes... especially when it's you talking to yourself haha... :P
Anyways, I went to Florida and tried to eat properly! I was training for a half marathon after all! I went out for an hour each day for a run and sweated so bad in the 25 degree C weather!!! It was great!! I drank lots of water, I was being relatively healthy for breakfast and lunch... But then I was also having pasta for dinners since I needed my "carbs" to be able to run for such a long time when Sunday and the Half came along... silly Leslie...
So I ran the half, and that's another story which I'll post later when I get the urge to write again (obviously it doesn't hit me too often... haha sorry...), and came back to Waterloo this week. Weighed in at UWL and found out I was 211. Ok, well it wasn't the 214, and really, from 208, those 3 pounds could easily be the water I stopped drinking and eating from the week before... so really I actually lost 3lbs in real weight over the week (214-211)... which is perfect since the average healthy weight loss per week is 2lbs... :D
So now we're pretty much caught up to where I am now. I weighed in on Wednesday and was at 210... So if I can be 209 by Monday, March 7, I'll be on track for my 2lbs/week! I hope to go a little lower than that though, in a healthy, eating and drinking water fashion that is... :) You all have permission to ask me how much water I've had on a certain day or to quiz me if I ate according to my meal plan whenever you see me over the term. :P haha
I have no more weeks of being away, so I hope to really tackle this lifestyle problem and reaffirm why I'm doing this and get back into the groove of things over the next 8 weeks of school and exams and packing up, before I get into the real world and start being a professional. I'll need a good base when I go back to YK (although I won't be living with my parents anymore... looking for my own place there!!)
Thanks for reading... and like I've previously stated... I don't do this to solicit encouragement or fake praise or to get compliments. I simply sometimes need to write out what's going on and know that it could possibly be read by anyone who knows me. This keeps me accountable to many people and what they might think of things. And that's a system that actually works for me, haha. And as to why I mention my exact weight numbers. It's me trying to shake loose the power they hold over me. A number is a number is a number. It varies over about 5lbs every single day depending on food and water and the more I say how much I weigh at any given point, the less bad it makes me feel when I think about it. :) It's just a number! :D
So thanks world for keeping me accountable!
~Leslie
So now we enter into part two of the update!! Fair warning, this one is full of some roller coasters and emotions.
Ok... so it's the beginning of January and I'm back in Waterloo. I've called my nutritionists at UWeightLoss and my personal trainer at Goodlife Fitness and have already set up dates and times to go see them! Well, I get to the nutritionists first and weigh in... which is where I find out that I'm 219lbs... It's pretty bad, since I hadn't weighed myself since mid december, and I wasn't expecting that kind of a jump, even though I knew I was very off track. Tears and feelings of guilt and anger at myself ensue and it's not much of a pretty picture haha... (don't say I didn't warn you this post was full of emotions :P)
Anyways, the gals at UWL are amazing. They really really are. They just sat me down and were like this: "look... what happened, happened. Let's start with this and what we have and see where we can go from here. We know you can do this since you lost 40lbs this summer... this is something you've already accomplished. Just set your mind like you did this summer, and you can do it!!" :) All with encouraging smiles on their faces haha. They have been a great support, that's for sure!
So January was a great month! By the end of it, between my meals plans with UWL and Kim, my awesome personal trainer, I was down all the way back down to 208!! That's 11lbs in a month! Whoohoo! I was feeling good again, the 200 mark was in my sights again and things were looking up!!
Then I went to Edmonton for the concrete toboggan competition that I'd been working towards for the last 2 years. It was fun, but there was a lot of drinking and eating going on. I tried to choose better food and I didn't drink all that much, but I also wasn't really following my program at all. To be honest with you all, I don't think that weekend really would have done much to me if I had come back on a plane with the rest of the team at the end of the weekend.
Unfortunately, I decided to drive my car from Edmonton where it was to Waterloo. And I had a deadline: IRC/IRS weekend was in 4 days. Ring fitting was in 2 days and that was my goal... Well let's just say that there's a post on here already about the Big Bad Chicago Storm that threw a major kink into my plans and almost made me miss getting ringed! yikes!! More about that in the other post if you are interested....
Anyways, I got back late, missed all the classes that week and a few due dates to boot... and then it was IRC/IRS weekend!!! This included a breakfast kegger and drinking all day on Friday until early Saturday morning, ceremony at 10am on Saturday, then a big lunch at red lobster with close friends, and IRS that night which was a whole bunch of drinking there too... so I pretty much bungled all of my progress just from the drive and the IRC/IRS weekend I think...
Went to school on the Monday not feeling too hot (I wonder why... haha), but also stressed out of my mind about all of the class and submissions i had missed, plus worrying about the 4 assignments that were due that week alone that I hadn't finished or even started. Well, lets just say that I lived on campus and got everything done before their due dates (although I did get extensions for some)... however I again didn't work out and ate like crap. Apparently I'm a stress eater... go figure lol.
Finally made it into UWL on Friday and found out that I had yo-yo'd back up to 214... *sigh* there goes all my progress... I work really hard over the next two weeks and get back down to 208 before I leave for Florida and my half marathon for reading week. Yay! or is it?
I kinda cheated... I didn't really eat very much and totally neglected any water. All that weight was pretty much water weight that I lost and being dumb by not eating just to see a number go down... stupid thing to do hey? Is a number really worth me being dumb like that? No, I don't think so... but it's hard to explain that to a self-conscious young adult sometimes... especially when it's you talking to yourself haha... :P
Anyways, I went to Florida and tried to eat properly! I was training for a half marathon after all! I went out for an hour each day for a run and sweated so bad in the 25 degree C weather!!! It was great!! I drank lots of water, I was being relatively healthy for breakfast and lunch... But then I was also having pasta for dinners since I needed my "carbs" to be able to run for such a long time when Sunday and the Half came along... silly Leslie...
So I ran the half, and that's another story which I'll post later when I get the urge to write again (obviously it doesn't hit me too often... haha sorry...), and came back to Waterloo this week. Weighed in at UWL and found out I was 211. Ok, well it wasn't the 214, and really, from 208, those 3 pounds could easily be the water I stopped drinking and eating from the week before... so really I actually lost 3lbs in real weight over the week (214-211)... which is perfect since the average healthy weight loss per week is 2lbs... :D
So now we're pretty much caught up to where I am now. I weighed in on Wednesday and was at 210... So if I can be 209 by Monday, March 7, I'll be on track for my 2lbs/week! I hope to go a little lower than that though, in a healthy, eating and drinking water fashion that is... :) You all have permission to ask me how much water I've had on a certain day or to quiz me if I ate according to my meal plan whenever you see me over the term. :P haha
I have no more weeks of being away, so I hope to really tackle this lifestyle problem and reaffirm why I'm doing this and get back into the groove of things over the next 8 weeks of school and exams and packing up, before I get into the real world and start being a professional. I'll need a good base when I go back to YK (although I won't be living with my parents anymore... looking for my own place there!!)
Thanks for reading... and like I've previously stated... I don't do this to solicit encouragement or fake praise or to get compliments. I simply sometimes need to write out what's going on and know that it could possibly be read by anyone who knows me. This keeps me accountable to many people and what they might think of things. And that's a system that actually works for me, haha. And as to why I mention my exact weight numbers. It's me trying to shake loose the power they hold over me. A number is a number is a number. It varies over about 5lbs every single day depending on food and water and the more I say how much I weigh at any given point, the less bad it makes me feel when I think about it. :) It's just a number! :D
So thanks world for keeping me accountable!
~Leslie
Long overdue update #1
Hi everyone... so I obviously suck at keeping people up to date and writing stuff... sorry haha
I figure I'll update you all in two parts. First part, this one, can cover what happened at the end of this summer and the fall term. Then the second part will cover from January to now! So on to Part one!!
Well I left Waterloo at the end of the summer to go on a road trip with one of my besties, Chelsea McNaughton and her cute kid, Sebastion! We went from Waterloo to Halifax back through Quebec and Ontario and the prairies ending up in Drumheller for the dinosaur museum (Seb was totally psyched!), and then Edmonton to see another one of my besties, Shayla Damery, and to drop off Chels and Seb at their new home for the next few years, and then I finally continued on back to Yellowknife!
All in all the trip took about 2.5 weeks! I left Waterloo at a weight of 202lbs. When I got back to YK, I was 205... and soooo stoked that with no exercise and not really being able to follow my meal plans on the road, that I was only up to 205!! wow!! go me!!! :D And I am so close to being under that magic 200!!! Hooray!
Well, in YK I lived with my parents, and unfortunately, that just did not work out for me. I was able to maintain 205 until November, but as hard as I tried, I couldn't lose anything!! Admittedly, that was my fault. I worked 3 jobs (one full time and two part time ones) that didn't allow me time to work out or to properly plan meals. Plus the two part time jobs were around alcoholic beverages and until late at night... so not very good influences there, let me tell you!
Anyways, I successfully maintained 205 even living with my parents and eating their food, not being able to restrict what comes into my house and all that... whooohooo for me! Then November came around and that's pretty much where I lost it bad. I had a horrible first week with family and deeply personal stuff and all that going on (not gonna get into it, but it was not a good time... you close people know about it). The jobs started catching up to me, and I fell off the wagon pretty hard with eating.... actually i pretty much dove off the wagon into a pile of spaghetti and whatever else... And then Christmas came with all the parties surrounding it, and all my friends came home for the xmas break and of course we all had parties for them too haha... ugh... turns out your body gains weight a lot faster than you can take it off.
So I ended up gaining about 14lbs. So at the end of December I was 219lbs... from 205 at the end of October... *le sigh*
(don't worry... part two is a little better...)
~End Part 1~
I figure I'll update you all in two parts. First part, this one, can cover what happened at the end of this summer and the fall term. Then the second part will cover from January to now! So on to Part one!!
Well I left Waterloo at the end of the summer to go on a road trip with one of my besties, Chelsea McNaughton and her cute kid, Sebastion! We went from Waterloo to Halifax back through Quebec and Ontario and the prairies ending up in Drumheller for the dinosaur museum (Seb was totally psyched!), and then Edmonton to see another one of my besties, Shayla Damery, and to drop off Chels and Seb at their new home for the next few years, and then I finally continued on back to Yellowknife!
All in all the trip took about 2.5 weeks! I left Waterloo at a weight of 202lbs. When I got back to YK, I was 205... and soooo stoked that with no exercise and not really being able to follow my meal plans on the road, that I was only up to 205!! wow!! go me!!! :D And I am so close to being under that magic 200!!! Hooray!
Well, in YK I lived with my parents, and unfortunately, that just did not work out for me. I was able to maintain 205 until November, but as hard as I tried, I couldn't lose anything!! Admittedly, that was my fault. I worked 3 jobs (one full time and two part time ones) that didn't allow me time to work out or to properly plan meals. Plus the two part time jobs were around alcoholic beverages and until late at night... so not very good influences there, let me tell you!
Anyways, I successfully maintained 205 even living with my parents and eating their food, not being able to restrict what comes into my house and all that... whooohooo for me! Then November came around and that's pretty much where I lost it bad. I had a horrible first week with family and deeply personal stuff and all that going on (not gonna get into it, but it was not a good time... you close people know about it). The jobs started catching up to me, and I fell off the wagon pretty hard with eating.... actually i pretty much dove off the wagon into a pile of spaghetti and whatever else... And then Christmas came with all the parties surrounding it, and all my friends came home for the xmas break and of course we all had parties for them too haha... ugh... turns out your body gains weight a lot faster than you can take it off.
So I ended up gaining about 14lbs. So at the end of December I was 219lbs... from 205 at the end of October... *le sigh*
(don't worry... part two is a little better...)
~End Part 1~
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Not quite halfway, but soooo close!
Originally written on July 8th, 2010, this is another update and happy post :)
Update
Originally written on May 24th, 2010. Again, pretty self explanatory :) It's a happy post haha.
Last words on the subject.
This was originally written on March 30th, 2010. I believe it was the start of me taking control of my situation and my health. All you need to know was that I finally got out of a yo-yo-ing relationship that went on for far too long. And was very much the better for it. However it's always good to get things out and purge yourself of things that you need to say (hence another reason for this blog!).
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